DMV

How many times shud i take the fuckin driver's behind the wheel driving exam?
I got my second chance this morning and i failed it.
The examiner thought that I was moving too slow in a residential area. Im suppose to drive at 35 mph and im goin at around 20 mph. Is she kiddin me?! If only i could kill her, I already slashed her trought before she can even step out in my car.

If i fail the third try on Nov 17, I have to retake the written exam. And I'll be the history amongst the filipino engineer in our company.
Waaa!

Anyways, good thing i can move on quickly. I just want to get it out from my system.
I dont dwell in this fuckin drama of getting a license.

This country is slowly getting nasty and stinky for me. It is showing its true colors.
Completely different from Japan. I fell in love in japan for only a month of stay compare here where I felt like Im already in a deep shit for only 3 months. Behind the good greetings and smile are prejudices and envy. All in debt financially and emotionally. It's easier to get depressed here.

Every night I'm having a chit-chat with my landlord (kuya rey). Actually its our yo-c break. Last night was no different. He told me that he is having trouble financially and advised me to be wise in my money. I realize many things that I still have a good chance in making it good if I make correct decisions. Be wise in spending and avoid credit cards. This is my concern right now. 3 months had passed and I havent saved substantial amount in my savings.

My family in the Philippines is not making it easier. Umaasa sa lahat.
Di namn ako nagtatae ng pera diba?

Anyways I love them but sometimes my parents decisions are unreasonable and beyond realistic. They are going to a battle without ammunition. Just thinking that they have a saviour out there to help them in times of difficulties.

I hope I can still have my patience and still hang-on and turn the wheel upside down (or at least straight in a the perfect speed to be able to get that damn license).