Who are you? Are you nobody too?

Sometimes I wonder how infectious the people around me.

I observe that I sometimes subconsciously imitate their expressions and actions.
And vice versa!

The delivery of words becomes indistinguishable.
I can see someone laughing the same I do.
Walking and dancing like you do... huu, clone?
hahaha

Also, aren't you get irritated when you see someone wearing the same shirt
you're wearing at the same instant at the same plane.. at the same dimension!

Are we connected? via navel or in mind ;=?

Do our brain emit some form of energy that other people receive it, process it
and it some way store then use it when "time comes"

Or it is just to make things conform on a "certain" standard.
In which we become acceptable or within the Normal range of sanity.

When we see artist with this kind of hairstyle, expect that someone in your group
will most likely be wearing the same hairstyle in a weeks time.
"USO kc" it's IN!

Nobody would like to be left behind... although I know some people are.
I don't know if it is by choice or they are helpless and just surrender themselves as losers!

See I think I'm one of the problem.

Forcing some people to be that way.
To conform with what is appropriate and aesthetically nice.

However, if we look the same.
Almost say the same joke.
Dance in the same groove.
aren't we just pretending to be someone else?

hmmp I just remember this poem we memorized during my junior H.S.


I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us -- don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know.

How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!

-E. Dickinson

Freak

We'll can I say good to be back.
Back at home...

Actually twas a bit bitin... wait no not a bit.. it was
really bitin.
anyway back to land of...
do wanna continue, I dont want to start with a negative vibe..

picture: Smartplant window; software I'll be using for two months. =<



Well just a recap, on my flight last thursday...
It was terrible experience.
Seated at "64E"
The last seat on the plane!
(although not the most uncomfortable place, good thing that I'm on the window side and
the person beside me transferred a seat away)
Goddamit, Why didnt the japanese bitch put me on the compartment.

Well I'm talking about the JAL check-in representative.
I wish I could write more about the last trip but nothing more to tell.

Anyway, WE just finished our "kapihan" term coined for our department meeting.
Although, juice and cheap peanut butter sandwich were served in lieu of Nescafe.
The whole morning we were discussing about our CDP- Career Development Plan.

Dont want to sound "poor dad" but all are things said were crap!
Dont need to say more, I know my friends know that I have complaining over and over again.
Maybe many of them are irritated and want to kill me.

Nick, my classmate in DLSU told me to enjoy my stay here in office and stop complaining.
He also reminded me that I should enjoy my R&R in Japan.
Which I definitely did! hehehe

Ok, more on what my mind is thinking at the moment...
I just realized that when I created this blog, a created a new me.
Some might wonder if this is the me that they knew.
Few might ask if this is the me that they want to know.
My point being that because this is a public blog I do some personal censorship.
This becomes a problem because my intended audience become the new "rcmasterb"
the "master" of my fate.

I dont have a power the power to control... do I?

Even though my brain, my soul or someone omnipotent is thinking what I should say,
people who I cant see and read this is trying to control me.

I cant say that I'm afraid to meet and have coffee or dinner with someone (see I cant even say her name)
because I dont know how to act when I see her with somebody else...

I cant even say that I miss Japan and I miss her so much. (see you might be wondering who see is, if you know me, you'll start
asking. You'll say what the hell? He's gay! what is he talking about?)

This blog serves two purpose. One is to write about me honestly and second to be reminded that this writter is a

FREAK!

730 yen tour

Rain during summer...
Weather here in japan goes very unstable as the season approaches anew.
regrettably I wont be able to experience the autumn feeling.
It could have been a perfect time to visit gardens and temples in kamakura.

Anyway the summer heat in Japan was really hot for me.
I enjoyed my stay today more than my first trip here last june.
Maybe because of my friends here who are always on full gear "sa mga gala".

Talking about tour.
Last weekend we attempted to circle around the great tokyo.
It was a one week preparation.
We have to search the web for the optimum places that we can visit using our "all powerful JR pass"
This one-day pass is only 730 yen.
As soon as we realized that we can go in and out to any stations around tokyo area, we go gaga
cause hmmmp, like a real Filipino.. "MAKAKADUGAS kami hehehe"
So off we go...

6:00 - 7:00 am: Meeting place in front of Book Garden at Sakuragicho Sta. Konny was late. Konny is my neighbor and
"may muta pa ng ginising ko" We have to wait until 7am...
7:00-7:30 : Kamata Sta.: to make sure that we can really use "the all powerful pass". We had our breakfast at McDonalds.



7:30 - 8:00 : We visited Kaneji temple and yaayks cemetery. I dont know why I got the eeky feeling about the cemetery. Am i afraid of the dead
or am i afaid of death... or both?


8:00-9:00: We are suppose to visit the Museum of the Arts and Writers near Tabata Sta.. But just like an ordinary stupid tourist, the museum is still close and opens at 10am.
9:30- 11:00am: we are on a relax mode. We stroll around the Rikugien Botanical Garden. It was so peaceful and very "earthy". Cool air with incense smell.


I'll continue next time... as of this moment we are experiencing an earthquake.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

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This news supersedes my blog for today...
my first earthquake experience sa Queen's Tower...
The shaking queen's!!!


Strong Quake Hits Northern Japan
TOKYO, August 16, 2005


(AP)

Japan sits at the juncture of four tectonic plates - moving slabs of the earth's outer crust - and is one of the world's most quake-prone regions.


(AP) A magnitude 6.8 earthquake hit northeastern Japan Tuesday, triggering tsunamis along the country's Pacific coast, collapsing buildings, knocking out power and shaking skyscrapers in Tokyo, some 186 miles away.
According to the national TV broadcaster NHK, at least 14 people were injured when the roof of an indoor pool collapsed as a result of the quake. The Kyodo News agency reports two more injuries - in the neighboring state of Iwate.
Footage also showed a collapsed house outside Tokyo and landslides in the quake zone.
The temblor knocked out power to about 17,000 households and suspended bullet train services in northern Japan and temporarily grounded flights at Tokyo's Haneda airport.
The quake hit around 11:46 a.m. and was centered 12 miles below the ocean floor, nearly 50 miles off the coast of Miyagi prefecture (state) in northeastern Japan. Two 4-inch tsunamis hit the nearby coast shortly after noon, and officials expect little damage from the waves.
The quake was followed by at least four aftershocks and, according to Japan's weather forecasting agency, additional quakes of up to magnitude 6 could follow.
Sendai, the capital of Miyagi, is about 186 miles northeast of Tokyo. A nuclear power plant in the neighboring prefecture (state) of Fukushima was not affected by the earthquake, Kyodo reported citing the plant's operator. Another plant in Onagawa in Miyagi prefecture (state) shut down automatically and was being checked for damage, news reports said.
The U.S. Geological Survey registered the quake with a 7.2 magnitude, after initially logging it at 7.
Japan sits at the juncture of four tectonic plates - moving slabs of the earth's outer crust - and is one of the world's most quake-prone regions. A magnitude-6.0 quake shook the Tokyo area on July 23, injuring more than two dozen people and suspending flights and trains for hours. A magnitude-5 quake can damage homes and other buildings if it is centered in a heavily populated area.
Earlier Tuesday, a 4.9 magnitude earthquake shook Japan's northern island of Hokkaido. There was no danger of a tsunami in that one.

Barkada 96

As i was moving from one blog to another, i crossed a site that re-tells his "High School Barkada"
I was suddenly felt goosebumps, cause I remember how happy I was during those years.
I now feel so selfish talking boasting my japan experience and I got no single entry about my friends.
My real barkada.

Since I'm away from my "Baol" of pictures and memories, I cant attach pictures of my dearest friends.
darn!

We are **planning to be technically correct on numbers** 11 in our barkada.
Anne, Alvin, Alich, Alex, Andrew, Claudine,Joanna, Jorie, Lailanie, Ronan, and me!
We are the liberal party during PSHS "Pque Science High School" years,

Sounds very political?

Kinna. I was the class president and they are my allies/cronies. hehehe
The party speaks for itself.
Decisions and events during my time was "liberal and open-minded"

We established rapport because of our aggressiveness and free-spirit.
Go to movies after class card distribution **SM southmall used to be cool place for us**
We redicule the antics of our teacher hour by hour.
We eat "kwek-kwek" if get hungry.

We spend sleep-over to Anne's house "a bungalo turned two-storey"
to do class projects, practice speech and drama play/skit,
OR just spend the rest of the day eating pancit canton and century tuna.
Of course all the crazy jokes and laugh is a sure hit.

We love music and dancing. All of us are "pampansin"
All of us if not great singers are good in playing guitar or piano.
Lailanie is the diva of the group.
Although they can be a great quartet if Alich, joanna, and Anne join the group.

Andrew knows how to play guitar and key-in some piano notes.
Not Beethoven type but good to start a pop career.

Alex can belt-in some Mat Monroe classics.
"My way.." hahaha
Tatay na Tatay.
He can rap the pythagorean theorem in-front of the class.
No wonder he became the salutatorian.

Jorie can capture any guys with her beauty and charm.
A petit lady with a big smile.
Capturing N number of boys...
All of us cant remember how many boyfriends she got.

Claude is the girl next door.
Sexy, rich and very mabango.
Pretty face and malambing.
Guys get insecure because she's so ideally beautiful.
Thats's why there was a time that she felt she'll be an old maid...
.... but he found one now... And I think she's very happy.

Ronan was like my brother.
We intuitively on the same wavelength.
In terms of which is funny and which is really hilarious.
He's the jim carey of the group.
He can transform himself as somebody else.
My favorite one is when he used to imitate Mr. Cardona, economics teacher.
"bubonic plaGue" pronounced as "bubonic plaQue"
hahahaha!

Alich is a cavitenia. not the typical one.
She resides five blocks away from Ronan's
That's why the two can be mistakenly mag-bf/gf.
She very thoughtful. Doesnt want to give gifts "just for the sake"
Nice lips.
Terrific voice.
When she sings my heart stops.

Alvin is the M. jordan of the group.
Plays good basketball.
Knows how to do some shake your bon-bon too.
Fell in love with two ladies
But of course, he cant resist the curly hair and angelic eyes of anne.

* Fastforward:
Anne and Alvin is married now.
May "inaanak" na rin ako.
Bilis no?

And Alich emailed me a week ago,
Joanna is expecting a baby too...

Ron hmmp, got the whole site to describe me.
Not expecting a baby for the moment....
But wishes to have one....
hehehe

i want an i-pod

whaaa!

idle is really the heaven of evil.

today was quite a good day for me.

The HAZOP meeting is over and the report is already filed and ready for approval.
Two days of hazop report preparation.
I deserve this day!
No Indian chairman to bully me.

- -Let me explain for the benefit of those who aren't familiar with HAZOP study.

HAZOP study is done as a requirement for any process design work.
In simple terms, this is just to evaluate if the design is safe or not.
If the plant wont explode or not.

The chairman facilitates the meeting and should come from an independent firm to avoid bias.
So makes sense that my semi-boss isn't japanese.

Actually in some area he's good but generally he is pretentious.
I can feel that he doesn't care if he don't understand the system.
Anyway that's not my problem.
Like most would imagine... he stink!
For a week, i feel like my head is exploding due to asphyxia.
Thank god he already left!

Sayonara I say.

Just a minute ago, my boss already confirmed that I'll go home
on tuesday or wednesday next week.

I think this would be my last japan assignment for the year.

Too bad my tour in tokyo will be cut short.

haay! big problem.
No money for i-pod.

Been thinking for almost a week of buying i-pod.
I almost memorize the accessories and features it can offer.

Haay, just like a kid desperate for a bike.



But since I'll be off next week. NO i-pod for meeeeeee!
=<



PS:
this saturday wud be the tour 2 da max!
await for my next blog... i pray that it'll be exciting!

... includes ropponggi! hahaha!
have an idea?

Tulay

This weekend was definitely the most tiring two non-working day here in japan.
Actually last Friday we are supposed to dance out our asses at roponggi but my friends decided to postponed it and reschedule it on the third or fourth Saturday of the month. Anyway I didn't disagree cause I think that would be better cause there would be summer-end festival and there would be events etc,

My server is still down!
maybe too exhausted from the weekend.
We went to different places along the suburbs of Yokohama.
We literally climb a hill. Inside Sumyoji temple/are.
This temple is 10 mins walk away from sea paradise... hihihi
I dont know if we really want to go here or we just want to feel
again the excitement of "Blue fall" or the roller coaster.



This was on Sunday...


Saturday we went to ueno and tried to squeezed every grams of our brains cells.
From dinosaur, to stuffed animals, old computer big as a room, to Gas turbine generator miniature.. the list go on..
everything about Science 101.
Cool...
Cool because instead of going out, we are inside a 6-level air-conditioned museum.. hehehe
away from sun-burn =>





Of course we ended with the usual. with a blast!

Power

Last night I started reading a book by R. Greene about laws about power.

What is power?

Hunger for power is all we hope for?

subconsciously I have been following some of the rules enumerated.

deceit, lie and take advantage.

evil
!
( See the picture: Sumimasen! - - guard infront of meiji temple
Who's more powerful whehehe)

hehehe hope not or hope i really do?

Our office in Manila is having a major re-organization because of many people deciding to get-out of the company . Be liberated with unjust and unfair treatment of the company.

Power grabbing. Independence and more power.

Most of us process engineers (usu. a chemical engineering graduate) believe that our position is acquired and honed through years of experience. It cant be like any engineering profession that you can go and fight on the battlefield and fire ammunitions from university. What i mean is that our work although based on basic principles of science cant be specialized by mere technical schooling or any formal training. Hands-on is the key.

It's like cooking. Eventhough you can read a recipe and have an idea of the procedures, it isnt a premise that you can already cook. It's when you able to hold that knife, start slicing that beef and put in on fire...

Once you got hold of that skills and talents you become more powerful.

One thing that bothers me is that I can only obtain power through years and years of doing this job.
What happens to family.
What happens to social life and what happens to me.

I become more powerful but I become weak.

Weak physically and weak in heart and more importantly weak in soul.

I think a person can only take so much.
Nobody can become more powerful than somebody.

We are all in equilibrium.

We can be powerful but weak.
Just to balance.
"badabooom!"

It always rain on my birthday

o well early this morning I'm anticipating that it will rain outside my apartment.
But no!
No rain!
Sun and sun and humid air!
Although t'wasn't the first thing that came into my mind cause I was 30 mins late to have ample time to prepare my lunch for the day.


(Meiji temple: Shibuya, Tokyo with friends)

Actually I woke up 15 mins before my clock alarmed (which I bought in Sea Paradise -- handle with care alarm clock cause it's made in ceramic and there is a dolphin tail potruding which always keeps me awake cause I'm afraid I might break it. ow, there are glitters thingy on the side so everytime I turn it off, I get shiny specs on my hands. )

Anyway, not an exciting day for me cause I have to keep my adrenalin alive to do all the task ahead. Actually i am writing this blog after the meeting. So, all the discussions for this week is done and it's up to me and with the chairman to prepare the HAZOP report.. And submit it tomorrow.. O god help me!

Back to the past: last night I had a big bowl of ramen in Yokohama with my 3 friends. It was so good that even though you can see the waiter/ japanese on wet market boots guy take out the bones out of the broth/ soup stock steaming stainless steel container, you can still have an appetite to finish a large serving of ramen. Me and one of my friend got a 710 yen worth of ramen.. And I tell you, twas great.. Literally cant walk after turning the bowl upside down.

Afterwards, we decided to walk our friend to her apartment to have coffee. .
we thought since her apartment is in between Yokohama and Sakuragicho area, why not just walk and let all the ramen in our stomach get dissipated (crook-crook-crook)
It turned out that it was a mile walk.. son-of-a gun!

Anyway it was worth it, had a moment to enjoy with her and my friends
This what keeps me going here.
Aside from my family back home... it's with the small kitkat that I have.

Today, everybody is sending their greetings...
Thanks guys, lav ya all!

I dont want to say I miss you all
cause everytime I think about it
I find myself crying...

We're going to dinner tonight at saezeria, in Kannai.
to celebrate my birthday and my friend (aileen) farewell party.
This is our favorite hang-out place cause relatively affordable and we can all
laugh all night. Not to mention the drink-all you can! hehehe

Aileen by the way is going back home from more than a year assignment here in japan.
I'd like to say for the record that my stay here in Japan isnt permanent.
How I wish.. hahaha
My job here is upon request of JGC.
I'll be here only for two months..
so to all readers, got two months entry about japan!

I just called my mom on her cellphone.
I miss them,,, haaay!

By the way my mom informed me that's it is raining in manila..
A smile on my face... alas!

It always rain on my birthday..

sugar rush

ow well the sugar keep going
chocolates, coffee and more sweet biscuits..

seems irresistible to be on the meeting
when all you do is listen and try to capture all
the project engineers and refiner guru's voices.

this week seems to be as hot as boiler.
We are now doing the hazard operability study of various
packages for Jubail Chevron Phillips Polyethylene Plant in
Saudi Arabia.

We started on the Boiler Package to be supplied by Cerrey (Co'y at Mexico)
funny cause I feel like I'm in a telenobela listening to the two Mexican guys
Alberto and Hector explaining the process and instrument philosophy of the system.
Although they seems very knoweldgable, they are all killing
the attendees. They brought Process and Instrument Diagram, Control narratives and
Cause and effect diagrams that are inconsistent with each other..

wheeeh!

Anyway back to more fun and relax part.
Last sunday we went to sea paradise and had a blast...
Also from last June's getaway with my office collegues and former college friend (Nick)
who is rich now...

Anyway, at sea paradise, I rode for the first time to feel almost "G" falling from a 150 m height.

We also qeued on the longest roller coaster ride at tokyo area.

Tell you more stories soon. got to go... just had to take quick lunch break