Deuce

twas one a hell of a week.
me and dada is some kinna misunderstanding/tampo mode,,, that i hope that i'll resolved tonight.
small things that makes my heart exhausted.
Her text last night clarifies almost all her sentiments.
Sorry baby.. c u 2nyt.

Let's get sporty...
Roger f. won his 7th grand slam after lambasting the 20 year old unseeded Cypriot.
His finesse and sheer talent was too much for Baghdatis in a 6-0 lead during the third set.
It's much enjoyable final compare to the women's final. Justin-H Hardene retires during the 2nd set giving the
champion trophy to Amelie Muaresmo. Martin Hingis, although hasnt reached the final was able to hold a champion trophy of the mixed doubles after a fairy tale comeback.
Her fairy tale has surely just started. Hope to see her at Wimbledon.

So much for tennis, let me paste my badminton pix! hehehe what a move!?

pre midlife crisis

Making a blog is excruciating because sometimes our mind and heart works at the same time.
It is not in sync with every word that runs to our finger that tik taks on my keyboard.
I remember a movie that reminds that we do our first draft by letting our emotions and thoughts run through like water and proof read it afterwards.

I dont know if how magical it would be but sometimes it works.
The mere concentration and or guidance by some sort of energy creates if not a masterpiece, a work so honest and real.

This week I am having a "pre midlife crisis". I am not sure if psychologists agree on this term.
I am in a relationship right now which is under a state of orgasmic bliss.
That I am so happy inspite of difficulties on my work/career.
Maybe its a law of equilibrium that takes place.
"cant have it all"
The inequalities of two equates to a balance of force that makes my feelings unsteady and irreversible.

The pressure of having a stable and financially sound job is unbearable.
I cant blame however to external force because this isn't the natural way rational being do it.
It's how I react to the forces that makes me imbalance.
If all the punches of life would absorbed, the energy of it would dissipate.
My heart and my soul should not be strong or stiff rather it should me flexible and sensitive.

I believe on the power of the omnipotent being.
I believe the existence of the nothing that came from nothingness.
I believe that fate; that life is maha/mystery.
That this is just a dream and all the difficulties would be gone...
When I'm sedated by fate and destiny.
I will just run through again, check the spelling or grammar.
I wont be perfect. dont expect..

Good deed

Would I do the same? would you?

Test me!

It's really difficult to be good or just do extraordinary. Or do you think doing is good is already extraordinary?

I am no saint but I really hope I dont create catastrophe on my friends or neighbors.
Maybe simple act matters most than trying hard and pretend as goodie goodie.
Anyway this news reminds us to re-access our selves.
We know what's good, I dont need to define it.
What we need is to do good because it definitely defines us.


This morning I was reprimanded by my manager about my excessive late arrivals.
Actually it's normal to me... hehehe
Since elementary my yaya, tita, mother or simply everyone had difficulty waking me up every morning.
As much as I wanted to wake-up early, my body doesnt react to all methods of bringing me up to "rise and sunshine" I think my body is designed to kick-off at around 8am and retire at around 1 am (midnight).
I was really ashamed when I tried to explain about my lates. Of course I cant say what I have just written.
I just promised that I wil try to minimize my LAs and come to office on time.

Ok since new year I think I have to start a new resolution. I never made one so i think this would test my patience and commitment. Let's start...

My new year's resolution:

1.) I will come to office on time.
2.) I should meet my ideal weight. "calculate" Which is 150 lbs. Which me luck!
3.) I will try to manage my finances to be able to buy a car before the year ends.
4.) I will read books (rate of 1 - 2 books per month)
5.) I will quit smoking before the 1st quarter of the year ends.
6.) I will stop on five items.. the next would be wishful thinking!

wheew I hope I can do it!

Year of the Dog

It's the year of the DOG -- people who believe in fortunes and fate pray that the stars and planets align to give a less disastrous and consequently give more prosperous year.

The stars i think will be a balance of good fortunes and unfortunate events for me. Based on my quick research, I'll be having trouble budgeting my money. I'll earn considerable amount but I'll also increase my expenses. Expenditures on luxury and material things of very insignificant in nature. I have a tendency to increase my borrowing expenses. This is certainly not a good call.

My officemate hoped that all the rituals she did will pay-off. She got a new hair. And she bought crystals and voodoo thingys to drive away bad spirits and attract fortunes. I think I have to "buy" some crystals also as a countermeasure of my bad luck this year.

I contemplated last night on what are my short-term plans this year. Three weeks ago, my boss informed me that I'll be assigned to Japan for Assistant Key-Person training for 6 mos. I'll be involved in a Front-End Engineering Design of a new project called Aromatic Bottoms PJ or ABU PJ. So half of my year (March- Aug) is already planned. The remaining months is still undefined.
Prior to my job assignment I'll be completing my current PJ, MOGAS.
This is however plans on work. What about the rest of me?

What i'm thinking for now is how to maximize the time with dada. I am gonna miss her for sure when i go abroad. I hope we can both hold-on.