Blocked

What the f#%*!!

I cant even get to Yahoo!

This company is fast becoming like the remnants of my last company.

I already saw this one! And I know how it ended. GRRRR!!!

Good thing Blogger is not yet on the list. For now!

movie and applebee

Last Saturday was not unusual. Movies again. I completed my 4 movie quota. The free lunch on a birthday party didn't stopped me with my new addiction. At least this is for the "industry".

My first movie is the Prestige starring Hugh Jackman (aka Wolverine in X-men). Its about two magician who had been competing with each other in pursuing fame and perfecting new tricks for their show. This is a good movie. Innovative and surprising. Hugh is a great actor. He was able to lift this movie beyond mediocrity. Search for the true magic in this movie.

Second show is by Kirsten Dunst in Marie Antoinette. This is like a lavish fashion show slash MTV. The plot is horrible. Actually I'm still figuring what the story is all about. History tells me Marie Antoinette is insignificant in Europe's biography. I don't even remember reading about her. Ya, I like the name but it just remains a beautiful name. This movie is like Paris Hilton. A very likable, moronic beautiful girl in a well-dressed gown by Michael Kors. This is a complete waste of time and money. I don't even believe i'm writing about it. Next before I slash my wrist!

At last something funny. I watched "Man of the year" by Robin Williams. He's so hilarious. The first 5 minutes I'm out of my seat laughing. This movie is so timely in US because the Americans are going to have their elections two weeks from now. An eye opener. See, satire is the best weapon to punish the government and wake the apathy of people. Ibalik ang "Abangan ang susunod na Kabanata!" Remember this show?

Last stop is titled "Flags of our Fathers". Americans are truly addicted to war. The movie was about the picture of six soldiers raising the flag on Japanese soil (Mount Suribachi) during WWII. It signified victory for the Americans which what all they need at that time. Victory and superiority. Fuck them! .. wait I forgot this movie is a gay movie. Watch out for the swimming soldiers in boxers briefs. hahahaha Di ko ma-connect bat ganun ang ending? Are you suppose to watch this? ummm... for the ending and ryan philippe's eye brow.. go ahead!

applebee.. restaurant that's sounds like jollibee. They serve beer and burgers created by Bobby Flay. I need a drink! Who dont?

DMV

How many times shud i take the fuckin driver's behind the wheel driving exam?
I got my second chance this morning and i failed it.
The examiner thought that I was moving too slow in a residential area. Im suppose to drive at 35 mph and im goin at around 20 mph. Is she kiddin me?! If only i could kill her, I already slashed her trought before she can even step out in my car.

If i fail the third try on Nov 17, I have to retake the written exam. And I'll be the history amongst the filipino engineer in our company.
Waaa!

Anyways, good thing i can move on quickly. I just want to get it out from my system.
I dont dwell in this fuckin drama of getting a license.

This country is slowly getting nasty and stinky for me. It is showing its true colors.
Completely different from Japan. I fell in love in japan for only a month of stay compare here where I felt like Im already in a deep shit for only 3 months. Behind the good greetings and smile are prejudices and envy. All in debt financially and emotionally. It's easier to get depressed here.

Every night I'm having a chit-chat with my landlord (kuya rey). Actually its our yo-c break. Last night was no different. He told me that he is having trouble financially and advised me to be wise in my money. I realize many things that I still have a good chance in making it good if I make correct decisions. Be wise in spending and avoid credit cards. This is my concern right now. 3 months had passed and I havent saved substantial amount in my savings.

My family in the Philippines is not making it easier. Umaasa sa lahat.
Di namn ako nagtatae ng pera diba?

Anyways I love them but sometimes my parents decisions are unreasonable and beyond realistic. They are going to a battle without ammunition. Just thinking that they have a saviour out there to help them in times of difficulties.

I hope I can still have my patience and still hang-on and turn the wheel upside down (or at least straight in a the perfect speed to be able to get that damn license).

movie marathon

As expected my eyes are swollen after almost 10 hours of movie marathon in the 30-theater of ontario mills.

I watched "The Departed" starring Mat Damon, Leonardo Dicaprio and Jack Nicholson. A Martin Scorsese film about "rats". Two people infiltrating opposite side. Leo, was forced as an undercover cop on an organized criminal group headed by Jack. While Mat was a well respected police assigned to build a case against Jack, who considers him as a father and ally. An everyone kills everyone film. Story is suprising but not spectacular. Not worthy of an "A" rating at all.

Next stop is the movie called "School for squandrels". This is a feel good movie for teen-agers who are simply losers. This movie stands for its title. Complete waste of money.

Next since I'm already in the mode for garbage, I went to see "Jackass 2". Ultimately, this is what you call a movie for people without brains who want to laugh and have some fun. I enjoyed it. No plot. Uncensored ass. Well-written dialogue... "Fuck you--- 1000x"
Physical torture. blood. Pain. Vomit. Pubic hairs on face. Punching.
Typical Comedy. I had fun.
I have no brain and taste after all. Nice! hahahahaha

Last movie for the night is "Employee of the month". Actually I was thinking of seeing Grudge2.
But I remembered that "Employee.." stars Dane Cook who is a great comedian and Jessica Simpson who is stupid with a nice breast. This movie is about undeniably about Jessica's tits.
At least I end my weekend extravaganza with a BOOM! hahahaha

Im slowly sinkin

When I feel lonely and alone I always end up writing my blog.
It's despicable and unbearable.
Every second seems endless.
It just hit me.
It just.

I wonder how life could be if Im not here.
I wonder if im where my soul is at peace.
I hope this is not regret.
I hope this is just a delusion.

Weeks time I'll be celebrating 3rd monthsary with Uncle Sam.
I can’t be more happy.
Halata ba?
tang-ina!

This afternoon my face reflects my undeniable sadness.
Maybe near depression stage.
I was given some boost and some kick on the ass by my officemate.
A kick of reality (a piece of cake was offered afterwards as a consolation)

"Just think of the dollars"
End of story.

Im thinking of moving to houston where bunch of my friends are.
But who can trade the comfort and convenience of California?
Im considering it.
Im studying if its feasibility and if it would be more advantageous to me.

sigh.
This work is for what?
Im obviously un-inspired.
What the fuck!

Singing from miles away

Please Don't Ask Me
(with John Farnham)

Please don't ask me what I'm thinking
It's about you
And please don't ask me
I never can see you

What can I do
My first impulse is to run to your side
My heart's not free
And so I must hide

Please don't ask me what I'm gonna say to you
I toss and turn, can't sleep at night
It's worrying me, I go to bed
Turn out the light

But your face I see
It only hurts the more I pretend
That we could ever be more than friends

Please don't ask me
Why I'm so in love with you
You could easily make me happy
That I know

But I'll try my best to never tell you so
I will sing to you my love songs
And pretend but I'll keep my secret right down
To the end

Please don't ask me why I'm not talking
I just can't explain
And please don't ask me why I go walking out in the rain
I could not live the lie it would takeIt would be a mistake

Please don't ask me
Why I'm so in love with you
No please don't ask me